I’ve Come So Far?

So why can’t I believe that I’ve come so far?

I’ve had to tend to many deep wounds & many ugly scars.

I just can’t believe I’m in the place where I’m at.

I have wins & losses; feel hopeful, then “splat.”

Trauma work continues, it scares me to try.

I know I need to move forward and stop asking, “why?”

It just doesn’t seem real, that I’ve stood my ground;

Against so many dark forces, that do not want me around.

I stumble, I fall, I rise once again,

Until my footing, I’m able to regain.

I’ve come from a place where, “Poor” was my prognosis,

I fought & fought hard against their deathly diagnosis.

It took a lot of hard work & a lot of help from my team,

But, I stuck with the program & started healing, it would seem.

None of this was easy, some of it was terribly painful,

Healing was the objective & healing was gainful.

I have so much in my past that still needs healed,

ED wants me to give up & Depression’s darkness has been sealed.

Fighting these two enemies takes a lot of might,

But, I know I have to keep trying & stay in the fight.

I have the best team helping me fight & to heal,

But, seeing how far I’ve come, just doesn’t seem real.

I struggle to give myself credit, where credit is due,

It’s very hard to pat myself on the back, too.

Sometimes I see how far I’ve come in recovery’s way,

It’s just hard to see it on the really tough days.

So, I guess I can believe that I’ve progressed ahead,

Healing with each step taken & every positive word said.

Creatively Healing